I haven't talked to Dan since.. yeah.. I found out. I tried calling him the nihgt after, but got his voicemail. Ignoring me much? Whata baby. Yesterday I woke up around 9 and layed around, and at 11 I decided to go to school because everything reminds me of him here.. my bed, my couch in my living room, even my god damn computer chair. I went to school in my pajamas, no make up, with my greesy hair thrown up in a bun. I tried my best not to cry, but after telling everyone the story 7389 times, I just broke down. I went over Stina's around 4 bceause I just had to get out of here. Me, Chad, and Jenna walked down to Shavette's to see her. Went back to Christina's and Nicole, Bobby, two random guys, me, Shavette, Jenna, and Chad were all there. They all left around 5, and me, Nicole, and Stina walked to Colie B's house, sat outside her house and talked to her for a little, went back to Christina's and we were suppose to go to the mall with Lionel to look for homecoming dresses, but Lionel wasn't aloud out, so there went our ride. Colie B came over shortly after, and we were calling everyone looking for a ride, but either no one were answering there cells, or they were too lazy to get us and drive us out there. At 8, me and Stina went to my house and got my shit together, and went back to Stina's. I took a shower and junk, and we ate. Around 10:15, we layed down and watched tv. I was trying my best to sleep, but Sti was on the phone with Mike Ri forever! Finally got to bed, and I woke up at 3:34 and couldn't get back to bed because my kidney was bothering me so bad. 6 o'clock rolled around, and it still hurt, so I said fuck going to school. Once Sti was all ready I walked her to the bus, then came home and passed out. Now I need a cigarette.
I'm healing guys. I mean I still want him back more than anything, but I guess theres no use in fighting for him and getting more hurt, since he obviously wants to be with her. I have to call him tonight though. I have two of his hoodies and I'm about to fucking burn them. I'm gonna ask him when he wants them back and if he says just keep them, I'm gonna light them on fire on his front door step. I hope one day he'll see all the pain that I'm going through right now. =\
I gotta go to school tomorrow. I only went once for 2 hours yesterday. Ehh I'm gonna be so behind, but whatever.. fuck it all. This weekend better be fun, Friday I think I may be doing something with Tori or if I'm not doing something with her, I'll prolly do something with Chad and Jenna. And I'm pretty sure Saturday something with Stina and gettin DRUNK!
..I need a new guy.